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July 31, 2012: This slave likes to keep us in suspense, his texts are sent sparingly. I'm waiting just like you to see what I have done to his life. For each day he delays, I will torture him. He thinks his life has changed...this is just the beginning!!! Meanwhile I will be in the pool soaking My Goddess buns and My long lumbar curve that comes with. I have never swum so much and tanned in my whole entire life, and no I'm not on vacations yet.

July 27, 2012:The Consultation. After few e-mails exchange, the instructions were to call at 8:00 pm, and that's exactly what I did. On the other end a voice with a French accent says: "You want a consultation tonight? "

I actually requested a consultation because I tought meeting Her just once would be enough and I could say "been there done that". Never in my life was i so wrong! She gives me instructions. Her voice is soft but strict. Hours later, the door opens and closes. This is where I see the Divine Mistress Cathie in the flesh: Even better than the pictures on Her site. She wears a black catsuit, red PVC boots, a red PVC corset and black gloves. Within 2 minutes I contemplate the perfection, She is exactly what I expected. In addition She is fit and has perfect curves. It's a little dark in the room, my legs are trembling, I need to sit down. From time to time I look at her, I'm almost embarrassed. I wonder how I got there and at the same time I said that I should have done that long time ago.

I'm sitting on Her leather couch, Mistress Cathie sits across. It takes a moment to realize that I am sitting next to a woman who can enter anywhere and leave with the man of her choice, leaving all the other men dead of jealousy. I said I just need stay cool during the next hour, but only 10 minutes later I could not resist: This was the beginning of an adventure that changed many things in my life.

(to be continued)

July 23, 2012: The email that changed my life. While surfing Her website, looking at Her pictures, reading Her diary everyday, something inside me told me "try it once it must be something". So I decided to push the daring one step further: I asked for the contact information; it came back to me : clear, direct, precise written by Mistress Cathie Herself !

I remember like it was yesterday. I sent Her an email with the subject "So I start." I search for words, I try to be polite, intelligent, interesting but at the same time, i'm full of anticipation. In my heart I prefer to think that such a woman does not even probably read my email and reply even less: She has probably better to do. And that's where I got it all wrong: 20 minutes after my first email, I had an answer from the Divine Mistress Cathie. I was at work, stressful work, often with matters of life and death. The adrenalin is flowing in my veins and it's not because of my work: I am currently exchanging emails with the Divine Mistress Cathie. Me, the serious kind of guy, at the top of my career, there i was chatting with the Divine Mistress! Suddenly what happens around me has no importance; my attention is focused on my email. But nothing could have prepared me for what will happen afterwards. (to be continued)

July 21, 2012: It's officially Quebec construction holidays! So construction boys after your long months of hard work, especially with the few last weeks of very hot weather, you deserve it! Get some rest but most importantly...have fun!
I'm in town the next 2 weeks to embellish your holidays, add me in your plans and you will be recharged with a big smile on your face when you will be back to work.

July 20, 2012: Dear Mistress Cathie, I have known your for many years, YOU are one of the best Dommes I have ever encountered, and reading about guys who dare to call themselves submissives or slaves and write you the way they do, it's astonishing! I didn't see any sarcastic replies from your part or stupid games, and I have never thought of you as a sarcatic person. You are a fun loving person who cares about people and you make sure their fantasies are fulfilled. These losers wouldn't last very long in your session, you couldn't humiliate or call them names or make fun about their small dick, they will cry and say you are so cruel and evil! You can call me any names you want dear Mistress ;-)

My dear boy slut to rent, totally so true! lol Not many can take the small dick rap and be called names, but they all want the slut, bitch or whore treatment! There is always a rotten apple in every basket! Thank goodness, they are mostly gentlemen like you and appreciate Moi.

I have posted few comments just to show how some are really messed up. They have mind struggles, it's a power trip, who will win at the end. (guess who?) I take this with a grain of salt. Games that people play.

Do you know the best part with my "job" to compare to yours? In a work place, there are always few dumb asses (co-workers, bosses, clients, no big surprise here) that you have to put up 8 h/ 5 days a week / 52 weeks + for how many years? I only have to press on delete button or accept them and beat the crap out of them. Nice isn't it? lol Thanks for your concern and see you next week as usual for your boy slut renting services.

Gardner Murphy quote: “The struggle of the mind to keep itself free from every sort of bondage"

July 19, 2012: What is your fee for 48 hour stay in your sensory chamber? When I told him my fee, he replied: I find no value in paying $$$ to be put in your box. I have much better options at much less cost for someone to come to my house and lock me in a cage. I found someone for $160/h and she is pretty enough not to hide behind glasses.

Moi to sub: If you wanted to be locked in your cage at your home, why didn't you say so? A cage is not a sensory deprivation chamber, nothing to compare, and certainly not the same experience.

sub to Moi: Take a customer service course and stop your stupid games! (What stupid games? he's the one who is haggling my fee and not making sense)

After seeing me on and off for the last 15 years, he is now complaining I'm bad at customer service. Firstly, out there, businesses don't have to put up with asshole clients, it's not an obligation. In my line you aren't a client, you are just a mere submissive/slave, a toy to entertain Me.

One month later: Mistress Cathie, i humbly appologise for my misgivings and seek to repent. You have every right to put me down and say whatever You want to me, whenever You want. i am a worthless maggot who does not deserve You. You can see i am still stubborn and unrully. Can u help change me please? It was wonderful to read Your sensory deprivation chamber has an air/champagne control. i was also impressed it has aroma therapy and sound for brainwashing. If still available i would like to go for the 48 hour stay. Please help me become a good slave. i give You carte blanche to do with me as You wish during the 48 hours, including but not limited to scarification, if You think that is beneficial. Have You seen The girl with the Dragon Tattoo? Take care.

Now, go back to your $160/h mistress, oh it's true, another one who banned you! Once again, they all want to come back and serve me! he thinks my price is high, ooooh I haven't told him my new price yet! "grin"

July 18, 2012: He said he was waiting impatiently for my return, I was skiing at Mont-Tremblant. Many time we agreed on time for a session, when time came, any excuses to postpone a session were good, and some emails without replies from him, and after 3 months of on and off communications, he said he was trying to find time. After 5 months of silence, then...Good evening Mistress, I am trying again to perhaps book a session with You. I am available tomorrow later in the afternoon should You have time for me, please contact me should You be available, and let me know how much to gift You for 90 minutes of Your time. Thanks in advance.

Moi to sub m : Are you going to put me off again? Sub m: Well, given that answer, yes i am going to put you off. I was looking for an answer to 3 questions. despite being submissive, i am still human, and i absolutely hate sarcastic wit, so lets consider this conversation closed. Regards sub m

Here we are now 3 years later, his email came in: Are You available today/tonight for my servitude? (History repeats itself?)

Moi to sub m: Am I suddenly human after 3 years? He replied with only a : Yes (but no Regards this time!) FYI sub m: you will hate my wit more than ever, 'cause 3 years later, my wit is at its keenest and got wiser too! (bitchier too!)
Guys like him are always welcomed, but they will pay the price for sure! LMAO Told you they all want to come back!

Shakespeare: Better a witty fool than a foolish wit. Am I or am I not? That is the question. Answer: Just like wine, I get better with time!

July 17, 2012: I'm on bitching mode this week, must be the hot weather, oh it's true it's part of my title! Bitching about free time with me: To subs/slaves who think because we have some kind of connection (God knows how many have told me this) think I will go out with them, when you invite me to restaurant or anywhere, my fee is NOT the same as for my sessions, click on inforequest on contact page to find out.

Yes, my time is valuable and I will not necessarily say yes! and when I say no, don't feel rejected, with my schedule, I'm not always available, real time sessions have priority on restaurants and outings and I have a life outside BDSM. If you have such intentions, make sure to let me know when you book, not after our session.

July 16, 2012: Last week, I had an appointment, (nothing to do with BDSM) but I arrived 15 minutes late, (wrong direction, but I called) this person appointment duration is 1/2 h, so my time with this person only lasted 15 min. and shown me the door, and when I paid this person's fee, I doubled the fee, this person refused, and only asked for the regular fee, but I insisted because I want to make sure next time this person will be happy to see me.

WOW if I was showing the door to my subs/slaves like this person did to me, I would get a bad rap! All working people and professionals in all fields have a schedule to follow, why in my profession, you expect us to keep you for extra time for free? Even when you arrive late! Many expect to serve me for free after few sessions. Another lack of respect for my profession? Like if we had nothing else to do after our time together. Some are audacious enough to ask if I have someone else after (or before) if not then they will book, if yes they don't book, and some have stopped seeing me for not keeping them for free extra time, like if it was their due, because I did once and they were expecting it afterwards.

If you wanted more than a hour, why didn't you book for longer? That way, everybody is happy, no friction and no delay on my schedule. You already know an hour with me is too short, so book in consequence.

July 14, 2012: Subbie K pointed out since 3 years Quebec construction holidays are no longer the last 2 weeks of July. This year it's from July 22 to August 4. One thing I do have to remember it's not having my holidays at the same time. I'm ready for construction subbies who aren't leaving town!

July 13, 2012: Weekend in Montreal wasn't a good idea, I cancelled my trip, it will really be too warm this weekend (40 C) I prefer to stay here having my buns soaked in the swimming pool, and spank few cheeks in air condition. It's Quebec construction holidays for the next two weeks, not the best time to be on vacation when everybody are.

I'm planning to be away beginning of August for a week and one week beginning of September. I'm not decided yet where to go for my week away in August, but for September it will be St-John, Newfoundland. Soon I will post the exact dates, so that Newfies can be at my feet.

July 12, 2012: What to do when the only two shows I may want to see are at the same time at the the blues fest? Sit between those two shows? Anyway, the best show in town is at the fuck fest across the river!

July 11, 2012: Yesterday, I was passing by the blues fest, did not have any intention to stop but I heard "gang bang" in a song, I checked out it was Chali 2na and I stayed for 3 songs, he remixed a song of Rick James, can't find the song on Youtube. People were hiding behing bushes, like if the rest of us did not know what they were doing. The smell was coming our way.

July 7, 2012: Another fun weekend to Montreal, I will be in Montreal arriving at 4:00 pm Saturday July 14 and leaving hotel room at noon Monday July 16. Don't wait untill the last minute for booking! Dead line for booking July 13. 9 PM

July 6, 2012: I received an email saying: I totally agree about the effect of the full moon on human, all kind of strange and crazy things happen that I don't see when it's not a full moon.

The crazy people are crazier, the aggressive ones are more aggressive, the drunks get more drunk. Pregnant women give birth prematurely. I reply: And the Bitches get bitchier!

July 4, 2012: I love the full moon! Aren't you more horny right now? I could fuck anything that moves right now with my strap-on or my new "fuck in the ass drill", even snakes without ears! lmao Many people don't believe it is affecting human behavior, but I do see it with my subs. Hormones being somewhat connected with the lunar cycle. See the moon and the sex drive

Among the Buriats of western of Mongolia, young male cultivate their virility by indulging in homosexual orgies in moonlight. No married men are permitted to participate, but a man who has been divorced because his wife was unable to bear children may join in the orgies in the hope that his next marriage will turn out to be more productive. (women fault)

Many tribes in Africa, Eskimos in Alaska, Australian bushmen believe that sexual intercourse under a full moon always results in pregnancy. To guard against this, when it is not desired, the men rub saliva on the stomach of the women just before the period of the full moon, a treatment which is supposed to prevent the stomach of swelling. Some natives believe the moon itself is a virile force, women can have babies without men.

July 3, 2012: Did someone tell me that I look like Trinity in The Matrix? Put the shiny coat, glasses and voilà! Motor bike will come later!